argh

lately, im getting too emotional and too sensitive. i feel like i wanna be some sort of catcher in the rye - theres holden caufield phoniness in me. i dunno why.

for instance, i was surfin over tha net long time ago. i stopped by vanessa minnillo’s page and nicole scherzinger page. i learned that vanessa haven’t seen her mom since she dropped her and her brother at her dads doorstep in 1991. i was like, man, thats awful. i thought she is happy with her mom. but no, it is a stepmom who has brought her up. but im still proud of her for she embraced her being a filipina. in case u dont know she said it loud and proud during her miss teen usa days. and if u watch trl, u would notice how much she treats those pinoy celebrities. she hugged rob schneider, apl de app, nicole - pcd and cassie like they were long time friends… she never does that with some other guests, most especially to nick haha.

well, well, i know shes a nice gal. but with tha recent nick lachey-vanessa-jessica simpson sort of love triangle cheezum, she looks bad in the eyes of those premature judgemental people.

whatever! i wanna leave a message on her myspace to tell her i am willing to help her trace her mother in the philippines. i heard shes a neurosurgeon or something related to medical science… it must felt bad that her mother never had a chance to talk to her as a growing child, to hug her when she won a crown and be proud of her achievements. i could accompany her to her hometown pampanga or to kuwait where she and her mom stayed… i mean they were together for eleven years and you must not forget those times… when your mom fetches u from school, cook u breakfast, and all those stuff… then dropped u and never hear from her again. that must be so sad.

i know that it’s crazy to feel this way but it’s like i know her a long time ago.. shes like my sister… must be tha filipino thing! its holds us together like glue (:

(to be continued… im hella busy)

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